Wednesday, December 17, 2008


I'll start this post with some pictures since I have been such a bad blogger lately!

We went to PA for Thanksgiving:

Kraynaks Christmas display:

Anna in her favorite toy:

Staff Christmas Party:

Allie's puppy:


Today marks an important milestone in Anna's life, and ours. Today marks the day that Anna has been with us exactly as long as she was in the orphanage. She was 5 1/2 months old when we adopted her and now she has been with us for the same amount of time!

I was looking at one of the pictures from the orphanage and I was filled with sadness. She looked so small and sad and helpless. You can see the bite marks from the scabies that were making her so miserable. I don't know much about what her life was like there but I am so glad she came home when she did. I hope that she was loved and held and played with, but I don't know. If I dwell on that too long my heart breaks for her so I choose today to celebrate the fact that she has been with us for 5 1/2 months and will be with us for the rest of her life. She is so loved and cherished now.

She has been growing and changing so much in the weeks that I have been slacking in my blogging. She is saying dada, mama, Owgu (Allie), doggie, bye-bye, baba, and okay. She can pull up and walk along the furniture. She claps, waves, kisses, shakes her head no and signs "more".
She is so funny and happy. She never stops moving.

I am so grateful that God brought about this miracle. Money is tight and we won't be getting a whole lot under our tree but when I look at her face I see the best gift I could ever receive. The gift I was praying so desperately for last year.

I know I have said this before but it amazes me that I can feel such strong, opposite emotions. I am so very happy and grateful to have Anna home for Christmas, yet I am so sad that Emma is not here. Sometimes it takes my breath away when I hear a certain song or see her face. I want her here so badly. I don't understand God's ways but I know He has a plan for us. I can't imagine life without that hope. Why would I get out of bed in the morning if I didn't believe He had a purpose for my pain? He is knitting our lives together and some day I will see the completed work of art and I know it will be beautiful.

For now, I praise Him for Allie, who doesn't like me to write about her, but I have to say she is the most amazing person I know. For Emma, the little girl who taught me to love completely and tirelessly. And for Anna Grace, who brought back my smile and my belief that miracles can happen, even for me.