Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Baby, It's cold outside!!

Life has been pretty normal here lately. Well, as normal as it gets for us. We are back into our school routine and the Christmas decorations have been taken down. It has been pretty cold here in Jacksonville this week. Allie says she is ready for warm weather again. She is definitely southern!

Allie had her braces taken off last week so she is pretty excited to be eating popcorn and chewing gum. It was a long two years for her.

We went to Lake Wales to spend my mom's birthday with her. Allie enjoyed spending time with her cousins as usual!

The Steelers lost to the Jaguars and we were all sad, even McDuff. It was good to watch the Jags lose the next weekend though.

The last update I received from our agency was that we are number 11. In adoption language, we are now DTV (dossier to Vietnam). There has been some controversy lately in the Vietnam adoption community. There are some new procedures being put in place that will help insure that there is little or no corruption taking place in the adoption process. This may make our wait longer than expected, but knowing our baby is a legal orphan will be worth the wait. There are alot of accusations, opinions, and heresay being thrown around in blog world so I am not going to add my opinions to the many others. All I know is that we believe God has called us to adopt from Vietnam and we are going to continue waiting, because we know that He has it all in His hands. We learned a long time ago to let go of the things we can't control. About 11 years ago, actually. Now if I could only let go of the things I can control...

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Happy New Year

I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. I well remember them and my soul is downcast within me. Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, " The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him." Lamentations 3:19-24

I am one of those people who love the new year. I love the idea of a new beginning, a fresh start. I love to think about the past year and look forward to all of the possibilities that a new year holds. I always take the time to write in my journal and reflect on what it is I want to accomplish in the year ahead. As I did that earlier today, I found myself reflecting a little too much on my failures this past year. There are so many areas of my life where I did not meet my own expectations and I'm sure God was hoping for much more from me. I found myself feeling frustrated and discouraged and more than a little overwhelmed.

I thought of this verse from Lamentations and I found comfort in the reminder that God is the God of second chances. He created new beginnings. His mercies and compassions are new every morning. Not just at the new year, but every morning I am given the chance to move forward and accept His grace. What a liberating thought! I am free from all of the shame, the guilt, the regret!! He gives me a new beginning. I don't know about you but that fills me with such joy and gratitude. I don't have to earn a new start; He already gave it to me.

I already wrote a very lengthy list of goals in my journal, but as I write this I have to say if there is just one thing I accomplish this year I hope it is this: I long to live each day to its fullest, free from my fears and regrets, and resting in the gracious, loving arms of my Savior. I hope the same for you.

Happy New Beginning!