This is one of those days we are told to celebrate in a big way!! First of all, while we were in Pennsylvania last week we received a call from our friend, Debbie, that our passports had arrived. It only took two weeks to get them! Today, I went to lunch with Debbie and she dropped me off only to come right back. She had gotten the mail and there was a big envelope from Homeland Security and in it was our I-600 approval! This is a huge deal in the adoption world!! Basically, it means we have been given permission from our country to adopt a child from Vietnam. The most amazing part of this is we just applied 3 weeks ago!! It usually takes 3 months. This puts us way ahead of schedule! I talked to our facilitater from the agency and she said she was speechless. Debbie and Danny are taking us out to dinner tonight to celebrate. It feels like hearing your baby's heartbeat for the first time.
We have always known that God was in this but it is so reassuring to see Him working in such a tangible way. If there are any of you reading this that doubt that God is real or that He is still at work in the world today, please believe me when I tell you that He is so faithful and so real when we place our trust in Him. There is no way we will ever be able to do this on our own, especially financially, but He is providing for us in surprising ways. We are so grateful and so excited to see what happens next!
It is so amazing that our hearts can hold such differing emotions all at once. In the past two weeks we have remembered our Emma as we marked two years without her on the earth and her eleventh birthday. It is such a bittersweet time as we feel so sad and lost without her yet so excited about the future. I have struggled at times with a feeling of guilt, as if I am betraying Emma in some way, but I know that that is the last thing Emma would want for me. I believe she is smiling today at our happy news. There are some who think our adoption will fill the void that Emma left but nothing could ever take her place. We have learned that God has given us the capacity to love without limits. There is room in our hearts for grief and joy, laughter and tears, and all of our girls.
What a great day!!