Friday, March 30, 2007

What I Know for Sure (Stacey)

There are some things in life that you just know from the very beginning. For me, there are just two things I've ever known for sure. The first is that I am a child of God; held in His hand and covered by His grace. That is something I have known for as long as I can remember.

I also knew from the start that I was born to be a mother. I played with dolls until I was "too old" and had to put them away. To this day, I love the smell of a brand new baby doll! When I was in high school I hated the question, "What are you going to do when you graduate?". I had no desire to do anything except have a family, but I had gotten the message loud and clear that being a mother is not enough in our society. I spent four years of college trying to find something to "be". I only knew that I loved home. Home and family brought me happiness. My mom was the person I admired. She had the life I wanted.

And so I chose. I wanted to "be" a wife and mother. In a world that devalues motherhood, I chose to honor and cherish it as sacred. I chose to raise my children because I believe no one loves them like I do. No one knows them like I do. I would rather be a mother than own a home, have a new car, have a big savings account, or have a career. I knew what I was supposed to "be" from the beginning.

God has been so good to me. He gave me the desires of my heart in ways I could never imagine. He gave me a husband who supports my choices in every way. He not only supports them, he honors them. He will do anything to make my dream of being a "stay at home" mother continue to be a reality. I guess he is the third thing I know for sure!

God has also given me the gift of motherhood in exactly the ways I always dreamed it would be. He knows me so well and He gave me exactly the daughters of my heart. I wouldn't change a thing about my children. Through their lives, He has taught me be a servant, to have more faith, to love with my whole heart, and to grow more Christlike.

He gave me a beautiful, healthy, smart, and vibrant daughter. Allie is my shining star. She fills our lives with joy and laughter. She is compassionate and loving and strong. She is growing into a young lady who follows God with all her heart. Allison is my treasure here on earth.

God blessed me with another daughter. Emma is my butterfly. I was blessed to take care of her for nine wonderful years. She taught me so much about love and life and death and hope. I gave her the best gift I could as her mother; I let her go. I let her go so she could be a butterfly. Emma is my treasure in Heaven.

And now I am waiting for my third daughter. I am excited to experience motherhood in a whole new way. I am praying for the woman who is carrying her and those who will care for her until we can bring her home. I trust God to give us exactly the child He planned to be in our family.

I hope I am teaching my daughters the right things. I hope they know that they don't have to ''be" anything except who God made them. I hope they know there is no one I would rather "be" than their mother!

paperwork sent (Dean)

It's not exciting or flashy, but it is one of the next steps. This week we sent in almost 1/3 of the paperwork needed for our homestudy. We're working on getting birth certficates, references, etc. for the remainder.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Our Adoption Story Begins (Dean & Stacey)

From our dating days, Stacey and I have discussed adopting one day. Our plan was to have 2 children biologically, then adopt 1 or 2 more children. With the birth of Allison and then Emma, those plans to adopt got put on the back burner. We've been on a holding pattern, discussing adoption on and off for the past 9 years. The time to discuss is over and we are finally moving forward.

We are going to be adopting a girl from Vietnam. We've chosen an agency and have started the process. We had our home study on March 20, and are now working to get all the papers necessary to complete it. There are so many hoops to jump through, but the agency has them all lined up for us.

We want to use this blog to keep you up to date on how things are progressing. Please pray that God will work out the many details yet to be taken care of and that we will be able to bring home our little girl within the next year.